So, most of you know this: Our house is very crowded with bookshelf-lined-walls, piles of boxes, bicycles, boxed up and framed artwork. It's overwhelming for me to say the least. I have a yarn collection problem and Mike has a book, shoe, shirt, shorts, vinyl, bicycle, hummingbird feeder, cheese grater, bike parts problem. We had a plan to move into a different place in order to help with simplifying our home and preparing for the baby but we've decided to stay put and I told Mike, "If we stay we still must simplify." Mike wholeheartedly agreed. So, UNC graduation came and went and Mike said, "I'll start with the house stuff one week after graduation because the color processor will be on and I want to maximize that time to make artwork." I swear he said one week. (He is making pretty artwork tho!) I said that was fine but that I was anxious about it all. Second week goes by. Nothing. At the end of that second week he said, "Let's clean the office out this Sunday." OH HAPPY DAY!
This is our place when we lived in Albuquerque. This is not as crazy as what our living room looks like in Chapel Hill...and this room was kinda crazy. |
So, this is what I know about Mike, you cannot push him and nag and prod him about something, otherwise it's counteractive and he either gets overwhelmed or frustrated. So I have learned to become the master seed planter. (Or so I like to call myself.) I give him gentle hints, I tell him how a situation makes me feel and how he can assist me and hope that on his own time frame he will be ready to act. It takes patience, but it works, maybe not always so smoothly, but it WORKS!
So, my seed planting grew into a beautiful stalk in the form of:
Oh, it was pretty, that statement even had flowers growing off of it. Sunday arrived. I got up early as usual and ate first breakfast. I putzed around the office (which has my yarn and some of my books and the computer and printers and scanner.) I consolidated as much stuff as I could and made up many give away bags. I moved as much stuff out as I could (light stuff) to prep for the big box and furniture moving. Sleepy Mike got up and I made second breakfast. We ate. He drank his coffee and slowly woke up. Meanwhile I went in for my morning nap, you know that second breakfast wiped me out. Then I awoke from my slumber and said, "O.K. I'm ready." I went into the office and started and then Mike came in and said, "Tell me when you're ready to move the big stuff." and I said, "I'm ready now." So he moved some stuff out of the way. I said, "I'm going to sit here and sketch out a layout of the room." and he said, "I'm going to watch the Indy 500."
WHAT?!
Big fat HA!
Sunday went and Monday came. I had Monday off for Memorial Day. I got up early again and started going through more stuff (getting closer and more organized!) Mike made blueberry pancakes, yum! I dropped Mike off at school where he did some art and studio organization and I took the car into Durham to get some storage bins and a decaf mocha frappucino, which hit the spot right in the center of my new pregnant sweet tooth. Later that evening we went to our friend Joe's house for his birthday where he made delicious tacos and the heaviest, moistest chocolate cake. Then we came home and I did some odds and ends around the kitchen. Before going in to lay down for bed I went to plant a seed and said to Mike, "Let's both accomplish at least one thing around the house every day. It can be as small as going through that paper bag of stuff to selling all of those boxes of books." He agreed. So I went to lay down and played some handheld Yahtzee and tears just started pouring out of my eyeballs. "Dear me, what now," is what I thought to myself. I became overwhelmed again. There is a huge bookshelf towering over me in bed. So I moved to the foot of the bed and put the oscillating fan on me. I said to myself over and over again,
"It's not the end of the world if we don't have a de-cluttered house by the time the baby comes. It's not the end of the world if we don't have a de-cluttered house by the time the baby comes."
"My dream is to have a couch."
I told him that it was a simple dream. He said, "What do you mean simple?" And I said, "A simple and silly dream to have a couch." And he said, "A new one?" and I said, "Yes, or a nice used one." It was hilarious. Really. That's my dream. To have a couch...or more specifically to have a living room that has enough room for a couch. We have a little love seat - which I like to call a "hate seat." It's tiny. You can barely recline and relax. That's my dream. He took it all in so well. He appreciated my forthrightness and took it all in. In this instance more than a seed planting was in order - we both needed to lay out the garden plans with our already sprouted seedlings. Anyways, I think I'm what you call "nesting" but it's hard to "nest" when you don't have a lot of control over the objects in the nest. The next morning he gave me a call at work and told me that his co-worker, Abby, was going to get a truck and put all of his stuff in it and drive it away. She said that he could chase the truck and pull things off if he wanted but that she would just keep putting the stuff on and driving. Thank you Abby. He also said that he was looking up hoarding and saving money on the interwebs and how those two things just might have a cause and effect relationship with one another. This is one of my favorite things about Mike. He will take action if you ask him to. It's just a matter of asking him to - and of course it has to be realistic, he's no pushover. He said to me the other night, "I don't want to be the cause of your misery." I told him he wasn't (yet, ha!) and that I still love him even if he has all of this crap that seems to be caving in on me. He knows how I feel and what I'm thinking about the house and after our talk I now know what he is thinking and am clear on what his timeline is. Being clear and communicative is so helpful. We are learning and growing and changing amidst a huge change a-comin' on a nearing horizon. Wish us luck.
P.S. I am feeling so much less frazzled. Talking to your spouse is obviously a good thing. :)
Oh, my goodness, that was a tear-jerker for me.
ReplyDeleteIs Abby really coming with the truck? That part made me laugh outloud.
I love your growing communication with each other. I wonder if his sisters, dad or mom will comment on this part of your blog.
Erin - your honesty and humor are so comforting. I just love reading your blog. Hate Seat made me laugh out loud. We have a hate seat too. :)
ReplyDeleteYou are such an understanding, loving, patient, gentle person. I'm sure it's what makes you a great wife and indeed will make you an amazing mother.
Some lucky boys over there.
thanks heather, that means a lot coming from such an understanding, loving, patient and gentle person! xo
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